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Stressed For Literally no Reason

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!! It's the weekend, even though everyday feels like the weekend in summer, which hey! I'm not complaining. This week went pretty fast, and to be honest, I felt very stressed which I have no clue why? I just have this issue with overthinking a lot of stuff. like, a lot. I'll just have one thing I'm thinking about and then it evolves into like my whole life and future and what am I gonna do with my life and yeah, I have an issue...

So today, I got up at a reasonable time(tbh, I have no idea what time) and went with my mom to Potbelly, the dollar store, and TJ Max. I LOVE TJ-Max. That place has such good deals!! I got a really nice leather purse that I am super pumped about..

So the rest of my day was pretty relaxed with a nice bike ride, some Dairy Queen and some beef stew. Yum! Ugh, I need to workout. I'm so sorry to cut this short especially since its been so long but I'm gonna go get ready for bed :) Have an AMAZING weekend!!!!!!!!!!

~Simply Sears

Just Do It

Hello Everybody!! HAPPY FRIDAY! Finally the weekend!

Soooooo...yesterday I went with my aunt and cousin to the beach and I may or may not have put on enough sunscreen. I AM SO BURNT. Ugh, my face looks like a tomato. And my body is so sore, especially my shoulders. Hey, but hopefully it will turn into a nice tan instead of the vampire ghost color that is my normal skin. lol

Last night I slept over at their house and boy was I worn out! Swimming is so much fun but it sure does tucker you out...Anyhow, I slept really good last night.

Today was a pretty chill day, my cousin and I just hung out at her house because my aunt was visiting her mom. We watched a lot of youtube videos on makeup tutorials and walked to McDonalds. My blood sugar was actually cooperating today!!

Okay, so...I've been having this war within myself lately. Like I just feel like I haven't been doing enough with regards to diabetes. And the fact is, I don't even know what the standard is for being a "good diabetic". Is there even one? I just have this day-to-day contemplation within myself of, "Am I doing enough". Am I checking my blood sugar enough? Am I correcting/calculating carbs accurately enough? Idk. I just feel as if I'm not doing the best job I could be. And the matter of the fact is, I need to be. Yes, its hard, yes its a whole boatload of work, but I have to do it. I need to get better at this. It's my life. I have to do this to stay alive. what am I thinking? My doctors appointment is July 12th and the truth is at the point I'm at right now, I don't think my endo is gonna be pleased.

Okay, so that was a bunch of confusing garbage, but base line, I need to find the motivation to take better care of myself, My diet, exercise, and management all need to improve and I just have to do it. 



Sorry for all the deep stuff, but have an AMAZING WEEKEND! TALK TO YOU SOON!
~Simply Sears.

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Finally 15

Hello Everyone!!
Hope y'alls week is going amazing! Mine has been filled with sleeping in, ice cream, and twitter. Haha.

So yesterday I didn't blog because it was my birthday and yeah...hey, dont judge me-_-

Yesterday I woke up around 9 and was obviously super excited that it was finally my bday!! A couple friends, my aunt and cousin, my mom, and I all went to Downtown Chicago to the Lincoln Park zoo!!! It was amazing and I couldn't of asked for more beautiful weather :) here are some pics:

 Overall, it was a pretty awesome day...

Today was Wednesday. HUMP DAY!!!!!!!!
Started off the day with gettin up pretty late, and going with my mom and grandpa to the store and pick him up some lunch:) after we dropped him off, mom and I went to get some mcdonalds and the go to TARGET. TARGET IS AMAZING, THAT PLACE MAKES ME SOOOOOO HAPPY. Thankyou Grandma for the bday giftcard!!!!!!!! I just got some makeup and nail polish(typical) lol.
Then I came home and took a nap, because you know i'm an eighty-year-old women and then went to church. AND THE HAWKS WON so everything is good:) alrighty, see ya tomorrow(?)

~Simply Sears

SUMMER!

HAPPY FRIDAY!

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!! YES!

Ugh, I cannot tell how good it feels to be done. Done with school: homework, waking up at 5(actually 6, I was late to school a lot), tests, classrooms, and finals! YAY. DONE.

Today was the day of the last final, and then we have these fifteen minute periods of our whole schedule afterwards...

English- a lot of passing back papers and just talking to my friends:) got a 90 on the final, btw
Algebra- MS.CLARK. I am going to miss that women! She was so awesome to talk to her. I hugged her and thanked her for everything. I got an 89 on that one though.
Biology- It was just dumb because we've had a substitute since our teacher went out on maternity leave, but its all good. we were just on our phones the whole time, We(my friends) played "Would you Rather?" We concluded that you find out a lot about people through that game. haha
Lunch-didnt eat thats forsure
Choir-playing "heads-up with the choir fam
Spanish- saying bye to ms. Masters and taking a lot of pictures:)

Then we were FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! haha. I was so excited!!!

Ah, freshman year wasn't bad and had some really awesome moments. It went super fast ad I really can't believe its over. Everyone have an amazing summer and I'll see you soon!

Here are some pics from today:

~Simply Sears.

It's Been a Little While...

Hello Everyone!!!!
 I hope you had a great Saturday and a wonderful weekend so far!!

I have been super busy with school and stuff, I just haven't had a lot of time lately:) But , thankfully that's going to end in like seven days!!!!!!!!!!! I get out of school on the 29th. I'm overjoyed! I can't wait to just be able to chill at nights and not have to worry about homework and tests and teachers:) Even though all of that does bring excitement, I am still super scared about finals. Ugh, I hate studying for finals. First of all, I get really distracted and second, it's just boring and it FEELS pointless. I feel like i'm just reading the same info over and over again, trying to shove it in my brain.

Finals stress doesn't help my body, which doesn't help my blood sugar. I feel like I have been soooooooo high alllllllll the time. It makes me so mad. It's gotten so bad that when I'm at a normal BG, I feel low because y body's not used to it.

Someone made a comment to me the other day about my blood sugar..."Aren't you used to your symptoms by now?". Ummm..no!?! the fact just is that you don't ever get used to the severe migraines you have when your super low or super high, or the incredible nauseousness high blood sugar brings. You just get better dealing with it, You just get better at hiding it from everyone around you. You just get better and putting a smile on when you really feel super bad. It never gets easier, you just get better at it.

Tomorrow I am going with my youth group to serve at a church in Chicago.  I am super excited. I love doing stuff like that, getting to serve with my piers, serving Jesus Christ. It makes me so happy and I know it makes God happy too. Please pray for safe travels and that my diabetes will stay under control(just once, please!). I have an ongoing streak of every time I go Downtown Chicago that something always goes wrong with my Diabetes, Usually a bad set. That turns into unnoticed-until-its-to-late-blood sugar that turns into-hospital or almost hospital-trips. So please pray everything will be okay:)

HAVE AN AMAZING SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Simply Sears

Diabetes Blog Week- Day 4

HAPPY THURSDAY! #FAVORITEDAYOFTHEWEEK

Alrighty...So today I'm gonna talk about something that is kind-of hard for me: CHANGE...

This is a really broad topic and I think I'm gonna go with some things that I feel NEED to be changed within my diabetes life. 

I would say that the number one change that I have struggled with in my life is my weight. Ugh, I can't explain the burden it has been on me for so long. I would do really good, lose some weight, then gain some back, I wouldn't care for a while, and then start caring again. I don't know if its just me, but I am the worst procrastinator in the entire world! I'll set these stupid deadlines(or start-lines) for myself and they would never happen...Like, "oh, I'll start eating right on MONDAY" or, "I'll exercise in little bit". Pointless because they would never happen. The urge to do something is there most of the time, but laziness usually gets in the way. I think that until you've been overweight, there s no way you can understand the thoughts and feelings that the person is going through. Diabetes isn't an excuse to not lose weight, but I need to stop using it as one. 

Another change I feel I need to make is consistency within my management. I feel as though sometimes I'll check my blood sugar 10-12 times and be correcting every little high one. Then I'll feel such an amazing sense of pride lie oh, today I was a good diabetic{What is a good diabetic? who sets these standards of, oh you're such a bad person because you screwed up once?}. Other days I'll maybe check my blood sugar twice{!!!}, and I'll feel like the most horrible person in the world. I think what I need to realize is that I am by no means perfect, and I need to do my best to take care of myself and that's all I can do. 

So overall, I think my issue is realizing that I am the only one who can change for myself. Not my endo, not my mom, not anybody, but me. I need to change. For myself, for God, for the better. 

HAVE AN AMAZING THURSDAY EVENING!! MAKE YOUR FRIDAY AMAZING!!!

SHOUTOUT OF THE DAY GOES TO:::

Marissa, my awesome diabetic buddy who's always there to understand every symptom I have, and to talk all my "beetus" issues with:) Love you girl, thanks for putting a smile on my face.